For my #1 bestest fan ever

Actually, also my only fan. But that's okay with me. If I could choose any one person to be only fan, it would probably still be you, Jay. Your comments on my songs are one of the only things that keep me writing them (the other things being a need to get it all down on paper, and also a passionate dream to use the songs one day and to stand up on stage performing them). So I thought I would just devote this post to you, because your words give me hope for success; no matter how much I doubt myself and my songs and the possibility of a future with the stuff I've written, you make it sound so easy and simple and possible (that's twice in this sentence I've used that word, but whatever). I should write a song about you, too, but I don't have enough material yet. I guess all I've talked about is myself (how selfish of me! I'm ashamed!). I know how much the movie "Anand" means to you, and that you love Hey Arnold!, and all about your devilishness during first? second? sixth? all three? grade(s). Maybe that's enough, I'll see.

But anyway, to address your comments. I'm so so sorry that you are going through the same thing that I wrote about in the last song (below). It's not something I would wish on anyone and I certainly hope that the lucky girl sees the light. (To be slightly nosy, do I know her?) You know another good song about the type of situation, a Taylor Swift song, Teardrops on My Guitar, here's the youtube video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7DRtl6CTqc. Oh and btw, I would love to have seen that paper you doodled and scribbled out on, just to compare it to the paper on which I wrote "Snow White." Remember the mayhem that looked like? And no, no crazy assumption there, it was hell. First dreaming the dream and then writing the song and then the post and then writing to him. I just wish he would say something back, you know? Even if it is that he never wants to hear from me again. I just want to know that I got through to him; the silence kills. Thank you, though. You're so sweet. And if you ever do write something to someone, let me know, so I can be there for you.

And I'm so glad when you say that the song I've written strikes a chord within you, because (as your friend said) that's what is the best part of a song, when it connects with the audience (however big or small it may be) and creates an emotional response. That's when you know you've been successful as a songwriter.

Mamma Mia! is amazing. I've already seen it more times than I can reasonably count and I love it and can't get enough. I've loved ABBA forever (and thus never caught onto the Backstreet Boys, NSYNC, Britney Spears scene...thank goodness!) and my sister, my mom, and I were singing in the movie theatre to every song! It was perfect, a really really feel-good movie. The only reason I would want to see Dark Knight (which was premiering the same day that Mamma Mia! was, so when we got to the theatre it was crowded and we were thinking that there would be no room for us, and it ended up being just us and like 5 other people in our theatre, everyone else went to see the other one) would be because Heath Ledger is supposed to be phenomenal in it. But, to be honest, it creeps me out a little. So I guess I'll just have to take your word for it? : )

Ah, yes, the name change: It's an ABBA song, Thank You For the Music, and it's a beautiful piece. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WauFkb4jmCI) I figured that this title did my blog more justice than the previous title. What do you think?

Love,

NBK