To Have Loved You

I was flipping through my second song notebook (yes, I've already finished one, and yes, the second one's better, though I only have a few pages left) during lunch today, because I had finished reading my leisure book during, ahem, work this morning.  And I found a few really good songs that I hadn't thought were so good when I was writing them.  I can't post them here, because they are more in the vein of "You Had Me," only much more so, and therefore would probably depress the excrement out of anyone, but it's nice to know that I don't su...that I'm not as terrible a songwriter as I sometimes think I am.

This song, I have to forewarn you, made me a little misty-eyed when I wrote it.  I may have teared up, and that would be the first time I had done so since I wrote "This Song's For You" (and one of the aforementioned ones), but the first time ever over a romantic one.  You may not be as sentimental, though, so proceed as you wish.

Oh, it kind of reminds me of that song from The Sound of Music where Captain Von Trapp and Maria are singing to each other after realising they love one another (because I'm totally sure that happened in real life - the singing, not the love): "Nothing comes from nothing, nothing ever could / so somewhere in my youth or childhood, I must have done something good..."  But not really.  My song is mine.

To Have Loved You

if these twenty-one years are all that is* given to me
and I close my eyes tonight to fall forever asleep
if time runs out for me to do all I could
I will have still done something good

CHORUS:
to have loved you, to have loved through and through
to have loved you, is the best thing I could do
to have breathed with you, dreamed with you, lived by your side
means I have really breathed, really dreamed, I've lived deep and wide
to have loved you, is the best thing I could do

if tenderness is one of the world's ambitions
as is giving your heart away without condition
them even if I ever do less than I should
I will have still done something good

CHORUS:
to have loved you, to have loved through and through
to have loved you, is the best thing I could do
to have breathed with you, dreamed with you, lived by your side
means I have really breathed, really dreamed, I've lived deep and wide
to have loved you, is the best thing I could do

BRIDGE:
days move on and let us go
but I'll keep you, to have and to hold
life's too quick, so make it worth it
never leave your good will hurting

CHORUS:
to have loved you, to have loved through and through
to have loved you, is the best thing I could do
to have breathed with you, dreamed with you, lived by your side
means I have really breathed, really dreamed, I've lived deep and wide
to love and be loved, is the best thing I could do
it's the best thing I can do...

And I totally believe this, too, if anyone is wondering.  This is my heart, as plainly as you'll see it.

(See, I told you I really love the heart.)

*I've grappled endlessly with the proper grammatical conjugation here.  Is it "is," or is it "are"?  I've argued both ways, and I've got crossings-out in my notebook over this.  "Is" would speak to a single entity given to someone, whereas "are" would be tied to the 'twenty-one years.'  What do you think?
Much love, and thank you for the musik,

Just Another Ordinary Girl

On my own, I'm only half of what I could be.