Longest Goodbye

Thank you to Yalina for her comment!  It made me smile, so thank you for the words of encouragement.

This song is kind of the flipside of "Touch You (Electricity)."  It's the moment you realise you can't just have a relationship based on physical attraction, and it's hard to stay but it's equally hard to say it's over.   And so you keep wanting to drag it out, because you don't ever want to get where you know you have to.

And I guess this song is sort of an homage to that bittersweet moment, the one where it dawns on you that the time for goodbye is now, and not tomorrow - even though you knew it was coming, it still manages to sneak up on you in a sad, sudden, unexpected way.  Maybe you'll read it, and see it in a sort of "friends with benefits" situation - where both parties happen to develop feelings beyond that deal, and for that reason have to part ways, and to end that situation.  But I feel like only seeing that in the song is selling it very, very short (but that, of course, is just me, because I see a great depth in that, and because I wrote it, obviously!).

It's also kind of a study on time, and on that moment in As You Like It, where Orlando and Rosalind are talking about how time, although technically the same pace for everyone all the time, varies in speed for different people at different times (like Einstein's Theory of Relativity, only way before that and written so much more eloquently).  And because both parties - back to the song again, sorry for any whiplash - are unwilling to reach that final moment, it feels like the longest farewell ever.  Of course, I wasn't thinking about Shakespeare or Einstein when I was writing it, but it seemed a good addition to my introduction to the song.

I don't know if you'll see all of that in the song, but it's there if you look (maybe).

Longest Goodbye

awakened by the rising sun, we were twisted in the sheets
the last morning was dawning, for you and me
we swore to each other early on that we wouldn't fall in love
then we both learned that running is never enough
and though I've kept that promise from the very first day
I realised that I've memorised every curve of your face

CHORUS:
this has to be the longest two people have ever said goodbye
it might take all day, or we might need another night
I know we can't stay, but I really hate to leave your side
as we both try to pretend that we still have some pride
neither of us wants to be the first to say the words tonight,
so we're just dragging our feet through this longest goodbye

I watch you stare at the ceiling, breathing out and in
both of us just tasting the final moments
in a few days, I'll be pretending that I didn't really know you
and you won't even be jealous if you see me with someone knew
maybe knowing you was always going to be bad,
but please forgive me now if I'm feeling just a little sad

CHORUS:
this has to be the longest two people have ever said goodbye
it might take all day, or we might need another night
you know we can't stay, but I really hate to leave your side
as we both try to pretend that we still have some pride
neither of us wants to be the first to say the words tonight
so we're just dragging our feet through this longest goodbye

(instrumental)

neither of us wants to be the first to say the words tonight
so we're just dragging our hearts through this longest goodbye

so I touch your face, one last time
this was real, this is goodbye...

There's no bridge here, just the instrumental, because I feel like there's no let-up in this kind of a situation: you can't change what you know has to come, so why change the flow of the song, when you have to reach the end anyway?

Much love, and thank you for the musik!

Just Another Ordinary Girl

I wanna be the only weakness that you want / so light me up, and burn me down / I wanna be your bad habit, a bad habit that's too hard to break...